Wednesday, March 11, 2015

Some Days Are Difficult


       Aiden, Graphite; 6 x 8", TMDD Series

Sometimes you just can't leave well enough alone. That's how it was this morning.  Not that this is
a challenging pose , but I had ot going pretty good and then got too into it and feel like I did one pass too many.  But a sketch, is a sketch, is a sketch.  It's a tool used to get acquainted with what makes this kid this kid.  So on to the next and so sketching for a short time in the morning goes.  Never a portrait  finished, just features scrutinized and likenesses captured or not.

I don't remember how many weeks it's been since I got to the studio, but yesterday afternoon I had to go.  My guilt was piling up.  I'd like to think the extreme cold was keeping me away--and for a while that was true--but it's warming up now-- I no longer must bundle up in shoes with a jacket on top of a jacket to walk through the door. After lunch I made my way downstairs thinking just thirty minutes Do something. Anything. That was the plan.

 I started in on the still life in my preparation sketch of Ruby, the bowl, the fork, the table. I concentrated on the bowl, but I kept looking at my watch, waiting for enough time to pass to call my visit respectable.  My concentration was somewhere else.  So I scraped the paint I had hardly touched  and turned off the lights.  I felt better that I had made an effort--even if it was a minor one, but I  suspected I was still wondering what's the purpose of all of this?  I've been wondering that since Mexico, since that painting class actually. 

A bowl, a fork,  a table should be simple enough, but some days, they are impossible. 


 

6 comments:

  1. Bij de eerste foto heeft ze er erg veel zin in super gedaan en je tweede is ook knap gedaan Linda lieve groetjes Danielle

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    1. Thank you Danielle for the accolades. My drawing sessions have been very satisfying.

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  2. Sketch is good. painting has lovely colour already, and that restless, can't concentrate state of mind is where I have been also, throughout this winter. Hope you and I both find out mojos again really soon!

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    1. Me too! I'm planning on working on the real bowl in the real portrait this afternoon. Tomorrow is good. About two PM your time? Later? Let me know.

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  3. I'll be back to normal . I have now time to read posts of my blog friends , after my daughter and granddaughtersvisit .
    I wish you serene days with your inner and outer feelings, dear Linda.
    I love your work always so interesting and deep , even if you are not always satisfied, as it happen for all seeking something that they have much to heart.

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    1. I've been following you and your granddaughters on FB. What a lovely visit you had. I'm envious, but my children will be visiting in June and I will be seeing my son and DIL in April in Las Vegas when Ellis and I will be celebrating our 55th wedding anniversary. Good stuff coming up.
      I think the artist's life is normally a series of successes and failures, but, in the end, all the ups and downs are successes. I forget that some days.

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