|My eldest needs ears. Tomorrow.|
Dan Kent said I've shown this painting so many times, he's dreaming about it. He didn't say if he was having a nightmare or not--but he will soon. I intend to drive Dan and you all crazy. I have found out what excites me in the studio: the unconventional.
Yesterday Steve was my nightmare. His head was huge-- not from his considerable accomplishments in life--but from his mom getting carried away with an orangish flesh tone. Today his image came back under control and even advanced a bit via intensifying colors. My other guys have yet to be so brutally attacked. Achieving total freedom in painting takes time, recognizing what excites you, abandonment of the shoulds, no thinking, just doing and total assertion of self.
I am a slow painter, a deliberate painter who appreciates firm structure and at the same time, the looseness of gestural brushwork. Unconventional color gives me a high too. I realized all this this morning when I looked at the original reference photo. It WAS the colors in that photo that prompted me to paint My Guys. (Aside from getting them together on the same canvas). I liked the garishness of them. That garishness is bringing this painting to life.
|From the looks of this oil sketch, unconventional lighting and |
coloration may have been brewing in my head two years ago in 2012. I didn't
accept the idea though--too hung up on what a portrait should look like no doubt.